Sunday, February 5

150 Juta


Untuk kali ke seratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
“Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?”
“Apa kau buta apa kau pura-pura suka”


Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

“Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa”
“Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea”
“Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara”
“Tapi dia jelas jujur apa adanya”
“Aku lagi kenal dia”

Eh dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku sambil berkata


“Sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa”
“Tapi sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya”
“Sayang mungkin saja keras kepala”
“Tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua”
“Saya kenal sayang saya”


Buat apa di cerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada


Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja kau saja boleh rasa
Rahsia kita berdua

Saturday, January 28


I’m looking for a lover not a friend, Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to. I’m looking for someone who won’t pretend. Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you. And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,. Someone who can keep me real and who knows always. Baby I like to have you in my way. And I’m looking for someone who takes me there, Wants to share, shows he cares. Thinking on the one that I’ve been waiting for.
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for. Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need? Is it you? is it you? I’m looking for someone to share my pain. Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains. Someone who I can cry with through the night. Someone who I can trust who’s heart is right. And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel. Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way. Someone who wont take for granted. How much I care. And appreciates that I’m there. Someone who listens. And someone I can call who isn’t afraid of love to share.

Listen to Songs: 
 Cassie- Is It You (Step Up 2)



I love my babyboy. I love him with all my heart. He's everything for me.
Infinity 

Friday, January 27

I my me mine

I will be all that you want and get myself together cos you keep me from falling apart and all my life I'll be with you forever to get you through the day and make everything okay.
Avril lavinge, I will be
baby Joe  


@ 

Dedicate this song for you. it's a very meaningful. And yes, I WILL BE!
Thanks a lot for existing. I love you and I love you forever. Infinity, right.
I'm trying to make this entry looks okay but i thing it seems like very boring. sorry for that.
I'm in rushing now.
But it's ok, you know it right that i love you. More than words and nothing can describe the feelings.
i just hope that we can stay forever.
Again; I love you :)

Side by side or miles apart
you'll always stay in my heart <3

Do you know why I love you sayang?

1. You have a very amazing smile :)
2. I love you when you touch me. It makes me that you love me.
3. Your voices could make me die. teehee.
4. You are really damn cute.
5. You always make me laugh.
6. I can always talk to you.
7. You laugh at my bad joke -_-
8. You find time to call/text me.
9. I can stare at you for hours and not to get bored of that incredibly adorable face.
10. You are the closet thing to PERFECT!

And finally I found my real boy. You are my babyboy. Forever will be.
Just stay the golden you, don't changes even sikit pun because I love you just the way you are.
Still remember this honey? YOU ARE ONE IN MILLION, HARD TO FIND IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET.

"Saying I love you 
Is not the words I want to hear from you 
It's not that I want you 
Not to say, but if you only knew 
How easy it would be to show me how you feel 
More than words is all you have to do to make it real 
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me 
'Cause I'd already know 
What would you do if my heart was torn in two 
More than words to show you feel 
That your love for me is real 
What would you say if I took those words away 
Then you couldn't make things new 
Just by saying...
"

K maybe that's all for now. I love you *hugs*
With loves; Yuyaaaa :3

Wednesday, January 4

Confession.


Dear You, 
I bet you're doing fine. To be honest, im doing fine too. Oh yeah, I found this one great guy by the way. He's wonderful. An all rounder to be exact. He can make me laugh whenever I'm sad, just like how you always did but even better. Every time I went out with him, I feel like the happiest girl in the world just like how I felt when I was with you. But he's different you know. He's not embarrassed to introduce me to his friends. He's not shy to do crazy stuff with me. But yeah, in a way, after all this months, I still miss you. Not miss you as in 'us' being together but I miss the way how we used to tell each other everything, how we thought that we're going to get married in the end and how I used to be your everything and your only weakness was me. I miss the old you. You've changed through out the year. What sucks the most is that you broke all your silly promises and you dont even remember me anymore. I hope you will regret it one day and changes to be a better person.

Monday, January 2

Walking away from the old me.


I used to be that girl who's dying to have a long hair, a girl who wish she had a flawless complexion. a girl who constantly afraid to take a picture of herself, afraid of seeing herself being that ugly.

People will always tell you, "Every girl is beautiful in their own unique way". But how am I supposed to feel beautiful when my heart keeps on denying it? After all, "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder" isn't it? And if I personally feels totally ugly about myself, I can't convince everyone else to tell me that I'm pretty. Only then I realized that I can't just sit back and cry for what I had. That won't solve anything. You can't just look at yourself in the mirror in hopes that miracles will occurs to you. Life isn't that simple.

I made a decision to seek for a medical help for my skin and Alhamdulillah, my skin gets better, days by days. I let my hair grow out for one year and a half without cutting a single inch of it. And of course, my hair gets longer too. Let me tell you, gaining confidence is no easy thing. And honestly speaking, I don't have the confidence I have right now if it wasn't because of my face. I believe a lot of girls out there have amazing personality but they don't shine in the middle of the crowd because they're too shy for God's greatest creation; themselves. I understand that insecure feelings, that hardship girls gone through because I've go through that shit before.Whenever girls start crying about their beauty, there's always a little voice inside of me that said  'She will see what she's worth for'.

So take a note from me who's been through this horrible phase; Beauty lies from the inner side of you, nobody will see it unless you truly embrace it. So be yourself, make a change in you if you need to have that confidence to grab that attention, to let people feel your existence, to let yourself be accepted for who you really are. Because out there, there's a lot of people who's ready to make you as a part of their life, you just need to step out of your comfort zone.

And trust me, you're not ugly, at all.

Sunday, January 1

<(^,^)>

HAPPY 2012!

Hii. A new year, a new STORY OF MY LIFE. I've learned a lot for the past 18 years of my life. Life taught me that this world is fucked up. We're surrounded by killers, heart breakers and backstabbers. So, its kinda hard for me to trust people. Because I know once i let my guards down, the society will start criticizing and judging and that is why I keep a lot to myself. Im fragile. I have an overactive tear duct. Im a cry baby but thats just how I overcome my problems. Maybe it wont actually solve it but at least it can slowly heal the pain. Im hurt but it hurts even more when people knows about it but they just don't care. It sucks you know when you have to fake a smile in front of everyone and pretend like everything's okay when it is actually not. Some even gave up. Um, i never said i was easy to handle. Honestly, nobody has ever showed me that I am worth keeping except for this two friend of mine. Others just left. But then again, im used to it.


Thursday, December 29

Wouldn't it be awesome if a relationship has an expiry date? Well at least you would be ready for that day to come, instead of holding on to a false hope. At least you will love that particular person to the bits, and let him go with peace. At least you will know that things had already fall down, instead of playing with the word 'why'.

Breaking up is never easy, I know. The urge to get back with your ex will occurs to you since you are used to the routine that both of you shares. But you can't just run back to him and tell him how sad you are because that just sounds pathetic. And you did that because you're feeling so insecure at the moment? How selfish are you? So the only thing that you're capable to do is cry. But it's okay, tears will dry in no time.

I believe that breaking up is not just about teary eye and fucked up mind. It's more than that. It's how you deal with your life after the break up; how you're going to wake up the very next day without his cute good morning text messages, how you're going to face the world alone without his inspirational sayings inside your mind, how you're going to need to replace his cute little voice with some random songs, how you need to find new hobbies to fill the gap of missing him, how you're going to smile without even faking it and how you will find out who's really there for you through thick and thin. 

I have to tell you, not every relationship going to work out perfectly, even a long term relationship can lead the couple to a dead end. It's not the matter of who's right or wrong in that relationship. It's not the matter of trying to find their little weaknesses. The important question is, are you ready to make a commitment? Would you put everything aside for the one that you truly love?
xox;
Yuya