I used to be that girl who's dying to have a long hair, a girl who wish she had a flawless complexion. a girl who constantly afraid to take a picture of herself, afraid of seeing herself being that ugly. People will always tell you, "Every girl is beautiful in their own unique way". But how am I supposed to feel beautiful when my heart keeps on denying it? After all, "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder" isn't it? And if I personally feels totally ugly about myself, I can't convince everyone else to tell me that I'm pretty. Only then I realized that I can't just sit back and cry for what I had. That won't solve anything. You can't just look at yourself in the mirror in hopes that miracles will occurs to you. Life isn't that simple.
I made a decision to seek for a medical help for my skin and Alhamdulillah, my skin gets better, days by days. I let my hair grow out for one year and a half without cutting a single inch of it. And of course, my hair gets longer too. Let me tell you, gaining confidence is no easy thing. And honestly speaking, I don't have the confidence I have right now if it wasn't because of my face. I believe a lot of girls out there have amazing personality but they don't shine in the middle of the crowd because they're too shy for God's greatest creation; themselves. I understand that insecure feelings, that hardship girls gone through because I've go through that shit before.Whenever girls start crying about their beauty, there's always a little voice inside of me that said 'She will see what she's worth for'.
So take a note from me who's been through this horrible phase; Beauty lies from the inner side of you, nobody will see it unless you truly embrace it. So be yourself, make a change in you if you need to have that confidence to grab that attention, to let people feel your existence, to let yourself be accepted for who you really are. Because out there, there's a lot of people who's ready to make you as a part of their life, you just need to step out of your comfort zone.
And trust me, you're not ugly, at all.