"Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku,
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu
Ku takkan pernah tertawa, Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya, Bila kau tak di sini.
Ku takkan pernah tertawa, Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu, Bila kau tak di sini."
Ku takkan pernah tertawa, Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya, Bila kau tak di sini.
Ku takkan pernah tertawa, Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu, Bila kau tak di sini."
Jangan kau lepas by Alexia.
People change, feelings fade, and the outer world is just, too scary. I open myself towards changes and then I realized that I changed too much and that is not right. Eddy, Lynn, Sherr, Sarr, Dalyll and Cheps for the hundred, thousand, maybe millions of times, things are different without you guys. Coming back to me is not the option I'm seeking for but praying for the sake of my condition here, alone in Melaka is the only thing I could ask for. I like the idea of having true friends and yes, I regret the fact that I never did appreciate their existence way back when. I'm full of insecurities. I wish I could carry a gun and bring it where ever I go. At least people will get scared of me, then only they will show some respect but nah, I'm not a soldier to be that tough.
Things didn't flow according to my plan. Life didn't move to the way I expected it to be. It has been the hardest days in my life. 2011, as expected, disappoint me- making it harder for me to excel in studies. I'm matured enough to think about future, arranging plans and making sure that I'm ready to face the bumpy road of life. Being a bitch like other people think I am is the only protection I could use right now, just to avoid myself from choosing the wrong path of life.
And I'm like, err I don't know why I missed Zarzuela so much. Being called as gangster sekolah but now I am like a tortoise. Always being scared with surrounding. I'm feeling like a small kid who don't know how to be an independent girl. It proves that I can't live without you guys and it always being that way. I misses you girls. My best friends. I misses TKC hell.
And right now, life is completely unfair to me. With my family condition which is making me sick and tired, my school life which is not getting any better, I have to say that a lot of people didn't like me and my family. Sometimes I wonder, What went wrong ?
Happiness never really occur in my life. Even if they did, it is only for a little while. Nothing in life is permanent, everything you have, your wealth, your beauty, your joy and stuff, its temporary. So please, stop hating me because I bet that one day, you will feel how I feel right now. Feeling hatred to yourself. And I can guarantee you that nothing, nothing ever goes right in your life and that serve you right.
"Its definitely hard, its painful but where I am now
and even from day one,
after the surgery (TMJ)
I completely believe this is
the right thing to do" -SheaLSmith
I miss you;
Yuyaa
